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So, i hung out with Nikki for a while yesterday. I <3 my twin :D She was making large outfits for the hunt of the BK variety. Spiffy.

So, I went to her hosue after schoo, got pretty, and went shopping. Sadly, I left the shirt I bought that I relaly liked somewhere in the mall, and it's gone forever ;_; Oh well, it was only like, 5.97. I'll see if they have another one next time I go.

And then I went to pick Joey up, but missed the Johnston exit and woudn up in providence. That was special. Eventually I found him though :D We just went to the 7:35 movie instead of the 7:05 like we had planned to. We saw SawIII. It was the grossest thing I've ever seen. I didn't watch a lot of it i was more like *shoves head into Jojo's chest until the really icky parts were over*. He's a good sport though, even though he's only 5'4". Haha.

Then we went and visited Nikki and Dan in Tilt, Joey got me a coffee, and I brought him home. Good times. Note, I did NOT get lost on my way home from his house, so I was proud of myself :D

I need to get gas though...I'm at like half a tank. ;_; And I need to do college work cause I'm sending everything out on like, monday and tuesday. I'm almost done, thank GOD. Um, what else do I have to say...I'm tired. And need a nap. I think I'm hanging out with Eric tonight. Shweet.

Stressed, how very stressed I am.

*dances in circles*

I'm lonely and haven't seen civilization in a while ;_;

So much has changed in the past few weeks.
I think it's time to start over again.
I've been under so much stress, I'm going insane.
In fact, I broke down and cried to myself today.
People aren't helping with my stress.
In fact, a few in particular just make me feel worse.
I wonder if people are just getting more bitchy, or if it's be.
Either way, I'm getting hurt a lot easier than I used to.
I guess I'm more sensitive.
Or, maybe they're just being an asshole.
Either way, I feel unwanted.
I wish I had more time to relax.
I wish I could forget about everything on my mind.
But I can't.

SO, i'm ridiculously tired and stress.

I wrote my second english paper this week tonight. (that's 2 papers in 2 days...they're only like, 3-5 pages but still). I wrote my spanish journal, which really wasn't bad. It's just a little letter (only a page long xD). I need to writeit out by hand now. Apparantly my compy has Spanish Spell/Grammar check O_O I was like...WOAH THAT'S COOL.
I had callback after school today...again...so weird. Hopefully he'll have a cast list up tomorrow.
I have an Econ Test tomorrow I haven't studied for...I doubt I'll get time to. It all depends on how long it takes for me to do the rest of my work in the morning. I have a commentary in Econ due monday, and I'm lost on how to do it, along with everyone else. Hopefully he'll clear that up tomorrow.

At least I had choir tonight. It's like...*sings* *regains sanity for short amount of time*

So, I got a haircut.
My emobangs are pretty much no more, but I"m not that sad. I still have bangs, but hopefully I won't have as much trouble playing soccer >_> Or tennis. GOD TENNIS WAS HARD WITH EMO BANGS.

O_O

So yeah, I'm searching for a new hairstyle, but the one I've got now will have to do.

PS: I just read all of stargirl in one sitting. SUCH a good book.

So, Matt didn't have enough money to buy me a homecoming ticket since he was told they were 15 each, and they ended up 20, and he only had 30 dollars. ;_; So, I'm kinda bummed. Maybe he'll come to mine, maybe not. We'll just have to have our own private homecoming.

update: I'm having Brian contact some Student Council people to try and get me a ticket. I should tell them to make sure they tell Mrs.Tracy it's me. She loved me and my brother when we were in Coventry, so HA. Maybe I'll bake her cookies if she lets me in. :D

So, I did about 5 and a half pages of Calc HW. Mr.Stones said not to spend mroe than 45 minutes on the assignment, but really, it was like, 5 pages of problems in the end. And I write small and erase mistakes, not cross out. So...I don't know how he expected that to only take 45 minutes o.o Maybe I'm jsut being wicked neat this year, since I'm gonna use these notes when I take calc in college....probably.
Physics is stupid. It was like "here are some points resembling a linear equation, estimate a line of best fit and then estimate the equation of the line using the b value you get from your line." So, Jordan and I just used a linear regression equation to make sure everything worked....why go trhough all the guesswork? I hate stupid math :/

On the Up Side:
My audition went amazing. I think so at least. I flubbed maybe once, but I got D to laugh, which is a very good thing. I'm pretty pumped, and I think callbacks will be tomorrow.

After that, I went to my first Oboe Lesson with Jane Murray. She's basically making me relearn how I set the reed in my mouth, even though she said the way I did it before was what some professionals do anyway o.o I like her way better though, I did notice a little more certainty with placement of the reed that in my way, which sometimes go a little sketchy if I didn't do it *just* right. She's really cool though, and I enjoy her company, and her two little dogs. Cloe is a spaz, but got used to me after a little. Apparantly she has trust issues with tall men O.O;; Maybe if I slouch next time I go, she won't go *spazzes*. I'm happy I'm getting the lessons, they made me go *smiles cause he sounds better*. Sure, it's basically 45 minutes of nitpicking minor details, but hey, I want to sound good, and I'm pretty sure she can make me do it.

Any other good news...well....Seniors get first pick for bringing out-of-school dates to homecoming if there are tickets left over after everyone from Prout gets them. So, yay. :D

I like muffins :D
You know the drill, get tooo iiitttttttt! *hands a cookie to whoever does it*


1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of Live Journal?
2. What's your philosophy on life?
3. Would you have my back in a fight?
4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
5. What is your favorite memory of us?
6. Would you give me a kidney?
7. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
9. Can we get together and make a cake?
10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?
11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you drive across country with me?
14. Do you think I'm attractive?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
18. Would you go on a date with me if I asked you?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

I got...a 100 on my first calc test O_O I did a happy dance. Oddly enough, it was Mz.Hoyt that told me first, because apparntly Mr.Stones keeps her informed on how people are doing in his Calc class. The grades for the class went something like...
2 100s
7 As + Bs
1 C
the other half of the class...Ds and Fs.

So, I'm pretty happy with myself ^___^

So, Auditions Tomorrow for the fall play, and then oboe lessons. How awesome. The oboe teacher seems nice, this is my first lesson with her. I'm pumped to learn ^__^


Ok, so anywho, I'm pumped for like, everything now. It makes me happy to finally get into the swing of things.

On a sad note: Prout may not have enough room for use to take outside people to our homecoming ;_; I'm going to kill someone if I can't take someone. They can cut a freshmen out or something, this is my last homecoming.

On a happier note: I read a picture book in spanish today for my English Class (half was english, half was spanish, it was a cute story about how a dinosaur layed eggs that turned into the sun O.o;;) It was fun. Apparantly I soudn like a spanish announcer man. xD

So, that's all I can think of for now. I'll keep everyone posted on how things go ^_~

Good Day (by Jewel)

I say to myself

Self, why are you awake again? It's one a.m.

Standing with the fridge door wide open, staring

Such a sight, florescent light

The stars are bright

Might make a wish, if I believed in that shit

As it is, I might watch TV

Cause it's nice to see people more messed up than me

I say to myself, as I smile at the wall, let myself fall



It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say

It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see

It's gonna be okay, cause I'm okay with me

It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gotta be



I shiver, shut the door

Can't think standing here no more

I'm alone, my mine's racing, heart breaking

Can you be everything I need you to be?

Can you protect me like a daughter?

Can you love me like a father?

Can you drink me like water?

Say I'm like the desert, just hotter.



The point of it all

Is that if I should fall

Still you're name I'll call



It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say

It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see

It's gonna be okay, cause I'm okay with me

It's gonna be, it's gonna be



As long as we laugh out loud

Laugh like we're mad

Cause this crazy, mixed up beauty is all that we have

Because what's love but an itch we can't scratch, a joke we
can't catch

But still we laugh



I go back upstairs, turn off the TV

You say "I'll be okay baby, just wait and see."



It's gonna be all right, it's gonna be okay

Gonna be a good day, just wait, just see

Gonna okay, cause I'm okay with me

It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gonna be...